Tuesday, January 14, 2014

She is free

Remember when you were a child and everything revolved around your little family? The world was only as big as your tiny circle with maybe a few friends thrown in.  For me that little circle was Mommy and Daddy, Chris and Jo, Grandad and Guy, and my Aunt Linda and Uncle Ted.

Of course now as a grown woman my world is much larger, but yet in the corners of my heart, where I still feel like a little girl, I can still feel that small world.

Yesterday that small world shrunk as my Aunt Linda lost the fight.

And literally that is what it has been since October, a big fat fight for her life. There were so many days that we all thought it was the end, but she would pull through and then even rally and seem pretty good.  There was always optimism and hope and I know that Linda wanted to live. But there was just too much for her to overcome, and once infection went into her heart it was only a matter of time.

But today she is free.



She is free from the pain, from the fear, from the anxiety, and she is free from fighting. And as happy as that makes me for her, it doesn't stop the pain here. I mean how can my Aunt Linda never walk through the door again? How is that possible? I mean, I know it's possible but it's just UGH.

The idea of it all is new, and I guess the reality of it all will begin to set in as two sons say goodbye, as a brother says goodbye, as we all say goodbye.


"He will wipe away every tear from their eyes; And there shall no longer be any death; There shall no longer be any mourning, or crying, or pain, the first things have passed away." Rev 21:4





9 comments:

Susie said...

Sorry to hear!! I know she is in a better place!! Prayers for the family!!

Hillary said...

Oh no friend! I'm so sorry for you and your family's loss. You are so right that she is free. May God gentle your pain and grief. Lots of love to you all. xoxox

Katherine @ Grass Stains said...

So, so sorry. Prayers are with you all.

Granny G said...

Love and prayers......

Lynne and Nick said...

Sorry to hear this - keeping your family in our thoughts and prayers.

Jami said...

Love you!

and I see some of you in your Aunt Linda.

Jessica said...

I am so sorry to hear that for you and your family girl. Prayers and hugs too.

Jill said...

So, so sorry to read this. Prayers for you.

Tracey said...

Love you :)